2003-08-31 - 3:17 a.m.

today (or yesterday, as it were) was my eighteenth birthday. i bought a pack of american spirits, a glass, and a tattoo appointment. i smoked a cigarette outside. marcy and i baked a cake. a bunch of people from all over the dorm came by to help eat it. there was plenty for everyone. i cleaned up. i smoked another cigarette. i took the pots back to harkness. i went to dinner. i got in trouble because i had no shoes. i came back and slept until about 10. i went to the bonfire. i ate cherry tomatoes. i smoked two more cigarettes. i hooked up with some other kids searching for the "disorientation" party. some guy told us it was on south lorain. we went to lorain and discovered it was an east-west street. we said fuck it. we went to east quad. no one was there. we came back to dascomb. i made tea for everyone. we got the meet the two republicans in our dorm. i had some warm milk. i changed into pjs. we watched harold and maud. and now i am here in my room and my roommate is gone and i am intensely lonely.

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