2003-10-09 - 11:14 a.m.

every time i see him, he seems to be distressed by something.

things that distress me:

when i'm not as good at something as i thought i was

when i don't dress warmly enough because i didn't realize how cold it was, and i get stuck outside somewhere without a hat

getting fatter and more out of shape

competition

bright lights

loud noises

making people mad at me

losing control of my emotions

involuntarily laughing at my own jokes

loneliness

my own weaknesses

one step forward - one step back