2004-05-02 - 7:58 p.m.

it's such a pain in the ass, having no absolutes in life. do i miss him, or just the fact that we were close? am i pretty? am i cool? what will happen to me?

the other day i was in the gym. i was standing facing a mirror and out of the corner of my eye i saw the reflection of a man dressed all in blue riding a bicycle upside down on the cieling. it wasn't until i turned around to look that i saw it was a guy carrying a yoga ball out of a cubicle.

earlier today my ichat program opened itself without being clicked on just as i was recieving a message from ryan, and my first thought was; "holy shit, my computer must be a time machine!" i'm still not totally convinced it's not.

one step forward - one step back